It seems like it should be easy. Reach for better feeling thoughts. Focus on what you want, not on the lack of it. Be definite and determined. Obtain the feeling of having what you want. Believe it is coming and it has no choice but to come. It is so simple. It really seems like it should be easy.
Having the power to direct our thoughts, doesn’t make it easy to do. Most of us have spent the majority of our lives ruled by our thoughts. Many of us have spent sleepless nights tortured by them. On those nights, it sure doesn’t feel like we have the power to direct our thoughts. No one wants to lie awake, ruminating and worrying over past or future events, but at one point or another most of us have done exactly that. Why? Why is it so hard to think about what we want to think about? Why does it sometimes feel like we have no control if we do?
This is a question that I will have to explore as I work toward mastering the Law of Attraction. That is what I’m really trying to do, if I am to be honest. I want to master a path to manifesting for myself that I can then share with others. I want to study and practice what all the teachers before me have taught so that I can find what doesn’t work for me, and more importantly what does, and then take what works from all these teachers and put them together and mold them into what is best for me. I’ll take what I want, leave what I don’t, and add anything I need that’s missing.
As I practice, it should get easier to direct my thoughts. I suppose it is like a muscle and the less one has worked on directing their thinking, the weaker the muscle is and the harder it becomes to do. The more I practice, the stronger it should get. I’ve gotten better. I can redirect small negativities quite easily. I can recognize when my thoughts are erroneous now, but when they have to do with the people I love or my relationships with them I still don’t always seem to have enough strength of mind to redirect worry and fear back to faith and love.
When I feel like I’m not being loved well or that my family members are not loving themselves well it feels very hard to control my thoughts and emotions. It would be much easier to go with the bad feelings and indulge in them. It wouldn’t feel good and wouldn’t fix anything, but it would be easy.
It’s hard to balance letting myself move through my emotions and deal with them healthily while keeping my larger focus on what I want. If I lean too far one way, I start to dwell in the negative. If I lean too far the other, I repress my feelings and present a false positivity that will do me no good. I need to feel my feelings without giving into them. Direct my thoughts to a better place without lying to myself.
I will proceed gently with myself. I remind myself now that this project is one of learning, practice, and growth. I am trying to become a master of my mind and my reality; I am not expected to already be one. I cannot expect myself to master these principles without having put in the proper dedication and practice.
With practice it will become easier. I will practice every day and I will become better and better and directing my thoughts and using them consciously. I will breathe deeply. I will go into silence often. I will meditate. I will pray. I will affirm my good.