It can be hard to change our thought patterns from negative to positive ones even after we know the power of positive thinking. It can be hard to align ourselves with our highest good. Why? If God is our True Nature, why is it so hard to align our humanity with our Spiritual Self?
I understand how things became difficult for us. At least to an extent, I do. We come into existence in perfect alignment with our source. Before we are even born, we may begin to be subjected to lower frequency energies, depending on our mother’s environment and well-being during pregnancy. Once we are born, we continue to be introduced to different frequencies and faulty ideas. Our thoughts and feelings become heavily influenced by our environment and our True Self gets lost in the mess.
This makes sense to me, and I understand it and can see where it has played out in my life and in the lives of my children. But how did these lower frequencies ever originate in the first place? As my metaphysical knowledge expands, will the fall from grace and exit from the Garden of Eden finally make sense to me?
Will my research help me to understand why God expresses life through us in such a way that our humanity seems at odds with our divinity? Why does our humanity urge us to fret and worry and our divinity urge us to have hope and faith? Why must we spend so much of our lives at war with ourselves? As there is a purpose to everything, there must be some purpose for life to express in this way.
Just now, as I was typing the paragraph above, the image of trees in the fall came to my mind; the way the leaves go through their change from green to brown and whatever comes between, the way they die and fall from the tree leaving it looking bare and lifeless for the winter. The trees seem to come back to life in the spring. The leaves, and maybe flowers bud, then spring to life. They not only bring life and beauty back to the tree, but they also share that life. They induce a feeling of hope and anticipation of warmer, more abundant days. They offer shelter and shade and clean air. And this cycle of loss and renewal, letting go and gaining, lack and abundance…it is absolutely natural for the tree.
I know that Spirit is letting me know that this cycle is just as natural for us as for the trees. And still, I wonder why? Why must all life go through this cycle? Why does God express itself in a way that can cause so much pain and suffering? I understand we need to know suffering to appreciate joy. I understand that our pain motivates our growth. But why? Why is this the necessary way of life? Will we ever evolve beyond the pain/growth, loss/gain cycle?
People have been trying to teach the secret of manifestation for centuries. Why do the lessons only reach those who are ready? Why aren’t we all born ready and with the knowledge already in the front of our minds, as natural as any survival instinct?
As I ponder these questions, I feel a sense of gratitude for my curiosity. It inspires me to keep learning. It keeps my sense of wonder with life and the metaphysical world alive. I am grateful not to have all the answers. Maybe that is the answer.